when i was a kid
It hurts me to look at little kids. They have no idea to how hard this world is going to be for them. When i was five, i thought no one could hard me. I thought i was invicible. I thought i was beautiful. I was friends with whoever said hi to me. Everyone was nice. Clothes didn't matter. I'd go to sleep tear free. I never had to try to run away. I was always smiling. I didn't want to kill myself. Little kids don't know what a rollercoaster they are in for. Life is hard. The world is a horrible, mean, judgemental place. I still don't understand why i wasn't so scared of all the dangers that are out in the world, at that age. I didn't know. It's not our fault we're so scared of the world. People forced us to be. Telling us stories, about stuff that happens in the world, make us scared. I wish i was still that carefree, happy, nice, smiley, funny little kid i used to be. I miss thinking i was pretty. I miss playing the rain. I miss being outside every second of the day. I miss not caring what people say.I miss the old me :')
Label: vent
Mei 14, 2011 @ 22.07 / 0 daisies